Chapter 15
The two of them sat in a corner.
Saoirse looked at the tablecloth as she waited for Julian to speak.
Julian, however, only stared intently at her, watching her every move as though afraid she might disappear again.
After the waiter brought the coffee, Saoirse took a sip before finally
looking up at him.
“What do you want to talk about? Go ahead.” Her tone was calm.
Julian unknowingly clenched his hands under the table as he struggled to
control the emotions on his face.
“Why do you want to break up? Did I do something wrong?”
A trace of helplessness flickered in Saoirse’s eyes at the questions. “Isn’t it normal to break up when you no longer have feelings?” she asked in return.
Upon hearing her reply, Julian felt his chest tighten. He suddenly began to
panic
“You’re lying!” he exclaimed.
Saoirse was surprised when she saw how anxious he was. However, her amazement was soon replaced by scorn when she recalled his determined tone in front of the haunted house.
“I never lie. If I like someone, I like them; if I don’t, I don’t. Unlike you, I’m true to my heart.”
The first sentence made Julian even more anxious, while the latter left him confused.
“Unlike me?”
Seeing the bewildered look on his face, Saoirse suddenly found him
somewhat pitiful.
Was he unaware of his feelings to this day?
She looked him straight in the eye and calmly went straight to the point. ” I’m not like you, a coward who has never dared to face your own feelings.. It’s obvious that you like Georgina, but you can’t bring yourself to confess to her, you use me to try and move on, yet you’re still stuck in the past, unwilling to let go.”
With every word Saoirse spoke, Julian’s face grew a shade paler.
Each sentence struck him right where it hurt the most. He no longer had. the courage to look at her.
Saoirse didn’t care what he was feeling at that moment; she just wanted to finally vent every emotion she had been holding back.
“I know you don’t like me. I’ve always known it. I thought I could win you over if I tried hard enough. However, after Georgina came back, I realized that love can’t be won through effort alone. If someone doesn’t like you, they just don’t. It doesn’t matter how much time you spend on them. I’m tired. I don’t have the strength to keep holding on to this hopeless relationship. That’s why I decided to end it.
“Maybe it’s because I’ve poured so much passion into this relationship for so long that it gave you the impression that I can’t live without you, that I’m entirely dependent on you. You can’t accept the breakup simply because you can’t stand being dumped by someone who once pursued you so relentlessly.
“The reason you came all the way here for me is nothing more than a momentary impulse. Once you calm down, you’ll realize that breaking up is the best outcome for me, for you, and even for Georgina. Instead of wasting time and energy on an ex–girlfriend, why not take a leap and confess your feelings to Georgina? After all, we have to keep moving forward, no?”
After hearing this long, heartfelt revelation, Julian froze in place.
Throughout this relationship, he had never really cared about what Saoirse thought, nor had he ever considered the future.
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Everything in his world flowed naturally–he was always pushed forward by reality, never actively pursuing anything.
Even with Georgina, he had quietly accepted his fate of just being friends with her.
But with Saoirse, Julian simply couldn’t accept the idea of breaking up.
Even now, with everything laid out clearly, he still didn’t want the relationship to end.
Was this stubbornness, or was it love?
He couldn’t tell the difference.
